Gosh. I just love the stereotype that just because I'm not straight and I am "female" that I'm attracted to all the other females that are close to me. Thanks mom! But alas, no. As much as I consider Kidd to be hot and I enjoy sharing sexual jokes with her and flirting, I wouldn't touch her because instead of being someone I want a sexual relationship with, she's my friend, my rock when I need someone because I'm hurting. Or Aija, my bestie. I'll gladly share sexual jokes with her, but...

I kind of wished I never existed. I don't know how to function. I don't know anything. I've been told that I'm kind, that I'm mature, that I'm smart, that I know what's good for me. I don't. I don't know anything. I just do what feels fitting and live with it. I've been told I'm brave. I'm not.

Why do people exist if they're nothing? I'm nothing in every sense of the word. People make it seem like I'm something important but I'm not. It feels like I pretend almost all of the time,...

I hate the closet, but I also pretty much hate being out to people who actually kind of disrespect me without even freaking realizing it. I recognize that it's hard, but common, most of it takes just a little brain power!

I hate being in the closet because it's like lying about who I am constantly. I'm being someone that I actually am not and has not existed for the longest time. I want to be able to use my rightful pronouns and the right clothing, the right bathroom, all sorts of...